expectation

Someone asked me today,
"Do you see yourself marrying this guy?"
"Do you like him enough to fight for him?"
"Do you think you really know him?"
As I give this some thought, I can't help but think that I know him so well. I feel like I've known him for years, honestly.
I always tell people,
"Time is the key"
"Only time will tell"
Seems like lately I can't even take my own advice.
I want to love you, 
I want to love you fully
I want to love your body
I want to love your soul
I want to love you so passionately
I want to love you like no one else has loved you before
I want to love all of you, your flaws and all.
But, that will come in this thing called time, right?!
I am the most stubborn and impatient person I know
I feel as if time is never on my side
I feel as if loving you is impossible
Or what if I already do and I just don't know it yet
I can honestly see myself spending the rest of my life with you.. weird
I haven't felt so strongly about someone since my highschool sweetheart, whom I swore to anyone that I would spend the rest of my life with, puppy love.
But I'm not settling for puppy love,
I want real.
I want perfect, not for everyone, just for me
I want honest
I want it, and I want it to its max.
When I set my mind to something, I do it.
That is with anything, I've always been like that.
People always say, when you know, you know.
Well I already know, dammit.
So what are we waiting for?

sincerely,
an impatient little bitch